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Saturday, November 7, 2009

Day 56: It's Not About the Food!

Daylight Savings Time sounds like a good thing, right? What could be bad about saving daylight? Well, it has messed up my life! I was walking every day, twice a day, for the last couple of months. I love it and look forward to it, especially my evening walk. Sometimes I am rushing Tina and Julie out the door so I can put the leashes on the dogs and head for the woods to detox and decompress from a day spent with three small boys. Not anymore! With daylight savings time it is dark when they leave. I wouldn't want to walk in the dark anyway, but they lock up the park. Poor Pippi and Scamp, poor me! We miss our walks. They are fussier and more hyper, I am grumpier. Poor Suzanne, Tasha, and Christopher. =(

I keep trying to find the perfect way to eat. What is naked food? What food is it that insured survival for our species? It certainly is not the processed crap most humans are eating right now. It isn't animal food. It has to be plants. We were put on this earth with plants. We could not eat animals for ages afterward. We had to develop hunting skills and methods, tools, control of fire, etc. Naked food is the food were ate and thrived on. What exactly is that? There were no blenders, or dehydrators or freezers then, only plants. So do all these methods render our food not naked? What about honey? If early man found it wouldn't she have eaten it? My head begins to spin. How should I eat? What should I eat? When and where should I eat? What is the price of eating wrong? As I miss my walk and my time in nature my worries about my food seem to increase. I feel like a hibernating bear, growing fatter by the second. Why is that? I am not eating differently? Where is my feeling of leanness? My happiness and feeling of well being? What is going on?

Suddenly I feel a sharp crack on my skull bones, an AHA moment as the goddess/god/the universe reminds me once again, for the gazillionth time: It's not about the food! IT IS NOT ABOUT THE FOOD!!!! I hear it screaming in my head. Not about the food? What??!! It is all about the food, I remind her/him/it!! That is what I'm doing here, food, food, food, all the time! The right food in the right amounts, naked food, fresh food, ripe food, organic food, in the right percentages, at the right time of day, in a boat with a goat Sam I Am! Look at the the name of the blog and the community, NAKED FOOD CAFE, FOOD, FOOD, FOOD! Now you tell me it is not about the food??!! Then what the hell is it about??!!

Then it hits me, the answer is right there in front of my face, right on the front page at the cafe, at the end of every post here; love and sunshine. These are the two components we cannot survive without. I know it seems like many of us do survive without them, but most of us are getting just enough of each to hang on. We are surviving, not thriving. Why do you think fruits and veggies, nuts, and seeds are our ideal food? What draws us to them? It is the sunshine and love they possess and pass on to us. They are the fruit of the tree, the children and future of the plants. They have been offered to us with love, and sunshine. Yes, we can blend and freeze and dehydrate them, and dilute them a bit, but love and sunshine live on. It is not the food we need, it is the light, the love, we cannot thrive without it.

But what about animals? They eat plants so they must be filled with sunshine as well. True. When you eat an animal you are eating the sunshine that the animal consumed. But you are also eating the animal and all the pain and sadness that animal carried around with it. You are eating a side of darkness and sorrow with your love and sunshine. The poor animals try, and you can survive eating them and their milk and their ovum as they sacrifice themselves for you, but you cannot thrive. The love and sunshine they contain is too bogged down, too heavy. Remember how you felt after eating a big turkey dinner, or a hamburger extra value meal? Your poor body tried to rest and recover and forget the horror transmuted to you through the flesh of the animal you brought into your body. The fatigue you felt was a defense mechanism to keep you from feeling the full effect of the food. You tried to sleep off the nightmare. Your body stored those memories in the form of disease, cancer, a broken heart, trying its best to keep you alive.

Love and sunshine is what we thrive on. We are focusing on the wrong things. The next time you find yourself craving the wrong foods, food that you know from past experience will not serve you, food that has taken life from another animal, realize it is not hunger for junk food you are experiencing, it is hunger for love and sunshine. If you can get out in the sun, do it, as often as possible. If you can't, increase the amount of love in your life; learn to love love, to live and breathe love. Recall the loveliest moments of your life. Remember happy times. Build a folder in your head that you can whip out at a moment's notice and fill your heart and body with love. Share love with everyone you encounter. Send them rays of love, hug them, look people in the eyes, tell them you love them. Don't worry about what they think, they are just as hungry as you and will lap it up like a kitten at its mother's breast.

Having trouble with a naked diet? Having trouble with anything? Fill yourself with love. You don't get it from someone else, they barely have enough for themselves; you create it within yourself, in your body, in your mind. You have an endless supply and plenty to share if you would only cultivate it. Soon you will find yourself so full and overflowing that it will spill over to everyone around you. Our world will be covered in love and we will wake up to the fact that there are no borders, there are no races, and genders, and differences, we are all one, living in a single bubble of love. We would not dare hurt one another because to do so would break our hearts. We would sooner die than cause pain to someone else. We would remember who we are. Then we will achieve the health and happiness, wholeness and holiness we are all craving. Nirvana starts with you, right now, do you want it? Start loving, soak up all the sunshine you can find, everything else will take care of itself!

Namaste Y'all! :~D

Until Tomorrow!
Love & Sunshine!
Connie







Friday, November 6, 2009

Day 57: Letting Go

Yesterday was an easy day food wise. The cravings I had been struggling with just seemed to disappear. Is it the nuts? I have been eating nuts and seeds and feeling fine. I still eat my fruits all day, just snack on nuts when I feel the urge. I have even been cracking open pecans, a job I really dislike.


For my giving yesterday I decided to give forgiveness to everyone and everything that had ever happened to me in my life. I know that holding onto these feelings has nothing to do with anyone else and everything to do with me, or does it? Can we be hurt by thoughts of other people? Can we hurt others with our thoughts? I am still working on that one in my head. But I do know that harboring thoughts of anger, hatred, animosity, fear, resentment, jealousy, etc, hurts the person clinging to them. So I decided to let all of them go. Just like that. Poof! Freedom.

I knew this would be hard for me. I use my anger like a shield. I am afraid if I stop being angry, if I truly forgive, I will be drawn back into situations I do not wish to be in. I am afraid people from my past will reenter my life. I have to learn that to forgive does not mean to allow. I can pick and choose who and what I allow in my life. I can also pick and choose the feelings I attach to people and situations. Instead of anger, guilt, remorse, I can view each person, place, or thing as a step in my becoming. I do not have to repeat mistakes, I just have to forgive myself and others. All of that occurs inside me.

As the day went on different things can to mind and I let them go. It was a little uncomfortable at times, even scary, but very freeing. Finally, evening came, the babies were gone, and I thought I had forgiven everyone, everything, myself. Without warning I was seized with stomach pains, fierce cramps. I had never experienced anything like this. Having never been constipated in my life, I wondered if this was what it felt like. I was almost completely immobilized. Instead of making Christopher's dinner, I found myself soaking in a hot tub of water trying to relive the pain.

I wondered if this could be the nuts. Was I having more trouble than I thought digesting them? Then it dawned on me that I was holding back, refusing to release past hurts and pain. But what? Hadn't I spent the day forgiving, letting go? I relaxed and allowed anything and everything to enter my consciousness. I was shocked by what appeared. Memories, people , places, long hidden, buried deeply, resurfaced. With each one there was a sharp pain and then a moment of relief as I let it go. I realized I had internalized these feelings far more than I even realized. Remembrances all the way back to childhood came floating to the surface. As they did, I blessed each one and let it go. It was quite an ordeal but soon all the pain was gone.

*One thing I realized, one VERY BIG thing is that I thought my anger, my fierceness, my resolve, kept hurtful people at bay. I thought I had created an impenetrable fence around us. I realized that was not true. It was my LOVE that kept us safe. I was wasting energy on others and hurting only myself. VERY BIG DIFFERENCE! *

While doing this I realized how much guilt I carry unnecessarily. Guilt that serves no one. For some reason I have decided that I am Super Woman, destined to be all things to all people, even though it is obvious that I am not!!!. I have so many things on my plate I can do little more than sample each offering. My gift to myself today is to make a schedule. I need some structure, sensible structure. Right now I feel guilty if I do not write both blogs everyday, enter every discussion on the forum, keep up with everyone else's blog, answer each comment on my blogs, keep in touch with Facebook friends and family, support other raw food forums, and do a little research of some kind to help all of us learn more. That is just online. At home, I want a perfect clean and tidy house, an immaculate yard, or at least to get rid of the sand spurs in the backyard. Laundry clean and put away, babies taken care of, fed, played with, Christopher's school work, fruit shopping, etc, etc, etc!!! Obviously I cannot do all of these hings, even with the help of my daughters, so I always feel guilty, behind, like a failure; I can never get caught up, so that I can feel successful. Something is always nagging at me and I have lost my zest for life. I am going to start changing that today.

My gift to myself is to set up a schedule. I will decide what needs to be done daily and what can be done weekly, or less. I will prioritize. I will have a place for everything in my schedule the way I want to have in my home. I will refuse to feel guilty. I am taking all my guilt, tying it to a rainbow colored balloon and sending it up, up, and away where it will be transmuted and changed into a beautiful rainbow that hangs there for me to see and remember, never again. Oh, and I am getting ready to make a pina colada for my daughters who put up with my crazy confusion every day and never, or rarely, complain. =P

Until Tomorrow!
Love & Sunshine!
Connie

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Day 58: New Challenges

Yesterday was the first day of the last of my Naked Food Challenges. I am certain of it this time, just like I was every other time! lol! No, seriously, every challenge I get closer to my goals. I consider the discovery of the Naked Lifestyle a great gift and it is time to give back, so this challenge will include an entirely new element.


A while back I joined group called 29 Gifts. The creator of the group, Cami Walker, challenges you to give a gift of some kind to someone every day for 29 days. This was a prescription given to her by a spiritual advisor as a tool to cure MS. It worked and now she has over 5,000 healers on her site giving gifts around the world daily. Tasha, Suzanne, and I, along with some of the members of the cafe, will be joining in for two rounds before January 1st. I will be counting backward to the new year. So today is day 58, December 31 is day 1.


Gifts do not have to be anything big, or even tangible; a hug or a smile can be a gift. Yesterday I sent pictures to some online friends. Today I am offering forgiveness to everyone and everything, including myself. What will you offer of yourself today? To whom will you offer it? Why not join us, and Cami, at 29 Gifts? Come along on a magical giving and healing journey that is sure to be miraculous, I promise!


Until Tomorrow!
Love & Sunshine!
Connie





Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Day 100! 200 Fruity Days; 58 To Go!

Today is day 100 of my second 100 day challenge. At the end of my last challenge I bought a new outfit for my 100 day pictures. My shorts were a very tight size 14. Today those shorts are falling off; I can take them on and off without unzipping or unbuttoning them! lol!

During this challenge, my daughters really jumped on the fruit boat. We are all naked foodists now. We are not always perfect, but we always return to "our" way of eating: fruit, veggies, nuts, and seeds. We started a second challenge called, Is One Bite Worth 100 Dollars? If we managed to stay away from cooked food until the end of the challenge we each got a $100 shopping spree. If we failed, we would donate the money to charity. I am sorry to say none of us made it. We all caved at one time or another, more than once, so some lucky charitable organization will get $300. But we got much more than a shopping spree from this experience. We know how we want to eat and we are seeing fantastic, magical results. Priceless!

I have now been on a high fruit raw vegan diet for 200 days. I am literally a different person. 200 days ago I could not walk a mile without great effort, and a nap afterward. lol! Today I walk six miles a day, easily, and I walk fast. Some days I walk more than 6 miles. I had vertigo and sinus obstructions every day. I was always tired and often depressed. My feet ached and I could never go barefoot. I suffered from insomnia and was addicted to coffee and junk /fast food. I was tired, fat, unhappy, and knew it wouldn't be long until I was sick. Standing for any length of time made my back ache. I had been trying to master a raw lifestyle for almost 6 years without lasting success.

Today I breathe clearly most of the time. If I eat badly, my sinus problems return. I am rarely tired and never depressed. I am light in body and soul. I haven't had coffee in 6 months and don't miss it at all. I rarely eat fast food and get horribly sick when I do. That will soon be gone the way coffee was, at the right time and never thought about again, I'm sure. I go barefoot all the time.

I could not stand to be in the heat during our long hot Florida summers, now I crave the sun. I love yard work which I had never had the strength to do in my life! I had been tired for 35 years! I have a new wardrobe, a new hairstyle, and a new hair color. I used to wear baggy black and neutral color clothing. My daughter called my clothes, Save the Earth clothes! lol! Now my closet is filled with bright colored blouses, tank tops, shorts, and denim skirts.

I have lost 40 pounds and gone from a size 16 to a size 10, almost a size 8. I went from an XL to a medium. I still have about 30 pounds to lose, but I no longer feel like a fat woman. I feel much more secure and am more comfortable in public. I like myself much better and have let all the self loathing go and begun an intense program of developing self love, most of the time! lol!

I started an online Naked Food forum, a complete shock to me! lol! I love it and all the wonderful supportive people I have met there. I hope to meet all of them in person one day. 200 days ago I was desperately unhappy, but determined to change my life and become a success story. I wanted to show others what an ordinary mom and oma can do with a little patience, some perseverance, a whole lot of determination, a new pair of walking shoes, and a ton of fruit! lol!

Best of all, my daughters are right here with me. Who knows, maybe one day my son and his family will jump on board. They are both learning to love naked food and the simplicity of this lifestyle. Tasha has lost 12 pounds and gone from a size 11/13 to a 7/9. Suzanne has gone from a size 18 to a size 14. I am so proud of both of them. Without them I would never have come this far.

I had hoped that after this challenge I would have this diet thing down. Well, you can teach an old oma new tricks, but it may take a lot of practice to perform them perfectly all of the time! lol! I am not quite there yet, but I am close! There are 58 more days until the new year. I am hoping to get this naked food thing tightly under my belt by then. Then I can just sit back, eat my fruit, veggies, nuts, and seeds, and let the magic happen. I plant to have a killer picture to post on New Year's Eve. I'm sure I will be spending the evening with Christopher, but he is the best looking guy I know anyway, and he plays a mean game of Candyland! haha!

Until Tomorrow!
Love & Sunshine!
Connie

Monday, November 2, 2009

Day 99: Life Is Good!

Suzanne started classes to be a massage therapist. She plans to go on and get an aesthetician's license when she finishes. She is excited and nervous since this is her first day of school ever.

Last week Tasha had her best week ever at her new job.


This week-end I met a pirate

and a raw food guru in St. Augustine, one of my favorite places to visit.


Tomorrow will be our final day of our 100 day challenge. The day that seemed so far away will be here in a matter of hours.


Does life get any better than this? If it does, bring it on! I'm ready!


Until Tomorrow!
Love & Sunshine!
Connie



Sunday, November 1, 2009

Day 97: The Mad Hatter Speaks

This is me with my children and grandchildren last year. I HATED having my picture taken. I am still not comfortable but I REALLY want to document this journey for those of you who feel like I did. I want to share what is possible at any age. I still have a lot of weight to lose, probably 30 pounds, but I am more than half way there. I feel light years younger and healthier this year. I am becoming the Oma my grandbabies deserve.

If you are not happy with the way you look and feel the time to do something about it is NOW. You might want to try getting naked. Fruits, veggies, nuts, and seeds. No rules, no counting, eat what nature provides. Simple. But the results and the benefits are nothing short of magical.

Until Tomorrow!
Love & Sunshine!
Connie

Friday, October 30, 2009

Day 96: What a Difference A Year Makes!

Halloween 2008
One year and hundreds of pounds of fruit later...
Halloween 2009
(50 pounds lighter)